Monday, February 13, 2006
hi my peepos... been realli busy this few days.. playing golf(crappiness), meeting frens and family before i leave... so havent been posting much.. but anyway tis post is for the 2 people in my life who i realli love.. love as in i would do anything and die and all for them.. im actually posting because im a coward and i have no guts to tell them in their faces.. so here's the story of t and s
tanyayour the one ive loved for the 3 yrs, sometimes i wonder why i let u go.. where in the world can a guy find a girl who loves him whole heartedly.. and supported him whatever he did? im sorry that we broke up the way we did. i know u felt the pain. im sorry i was so hard hearted in front of u. but i didnt have a choice. i loved u more than anyone i ever did.. but it hit me that we really didnt have a future together..no matter what u say, yr parents are yr blood.. me... im just a nobody. i didnt want to hide anymore. seeing you suffer because of me.. seein nic suffer because of me.. im not worth it. i hope after this post you'll forgive me.. im really sorry.. i know u think i broke up because of another girl.. i didnt.. i nv cheated behind u.. i hope tat new one iz treating u good...
shalgiayr the tragedy of my life.. ive know u for coming to 8 yrs.. actually saw u grow up... had so much joy and heartache with u.. haha.. the time was nv right for us i guess.. when i was deeply in love with u, well u were attached.. and vice versa i hope.. nv had a chance to hold yr hand or rub yr heart.. times jus was nv right and there was nothing i cld do.. everytime i got anything from u i actually had a jump of adren in me.. recently have been actually drifting away from u and i realli dont like it.. just had a shot of heartburn that day after our conversation in the kitchen. cldnt believe how life had turned out for u.. i had to hide for a day because of what i heard.. anyway i wish u the best in yr life..
to the two of u, i wish u the best.. i hope im still a welcome person in yr life.. if there is anything u need, any help i can render pls know that i may be far away but im always avaliable.. i truely believe in my heart that no matter in what part of my life i may be in, that i'll always do anything i can for u all.. well im going hide for awhile now.. see u peepos...
boo scribbled this at 10:16 AM!
